Berlin

Tomorrow, we fly to Berlin for the Berlinale Co-Production Market and hope to get future collaborators and investors for Boldstar. It’s also Dan and I’s first trip back to Europe together since 2017 (we went to Spain!). I love traveling. It’s my only luho. That and good food. And now that we have a new…

I believe again

Almost six years after That Thing Called Tadhana was first released, a live script-reading was staged in Makati with John Lloyd Cruz reading as Anthony, Bea as Mace, and me — my first time to perform in front of a public audience since grade school — as the Narrator. I wrote Tadhana when I was…

Impostor syndrome

There are days I feel like a fluke. That I’m not really that good a filmmaker, and That Thing Called Tadhana was just a lucky break. That the films and series I made after that won’t ever suffice for me to be called a legit director. There are days I can brush it off, sleep…

There’s a movie in my mind

There’s a movie in my mind that’s been there for quite a while. If I were 25 or even 27, I would’ve made it in a heartbeat. But now I’m 35, and I ask, may manonood ba nito? Kikita ba ito? Baka sayang lang pera nila, baka sayang lang oras nila. Babalik ba pera ng…

Leche, naiiyak ako

Saw this from Pinoy Rebyu. Lav Diaz was mentioned the most as Filipino film person of the decade, and whoa, I come in second. No, this is not me bragging. I have always been insecure about my directing and filmmaking. Even after 10 films, I am still unsure and insecure, like a newbie still anxious…

Boldstar thoughts 003: We meet again, Berlin!

We’re going to Berlin!!! My next feature in development, BOLDSTAR, is heading to Berlinale Co-Production Market in February! It’s my first time to join a European project market, after having experienced Asian Project Market in Busan two years in a row (FAN GIRL in 2018 and BOLDSTAR in 2019), so I’m really excited but also…

Inbox

It’s 3 a.m. and I’m still waiting for an email that hasn’t arrived yet. Been waiting since December. Oh Lord, hope it comes sooner. Hope it comes at all. It will. It should. Or my heart will break.

When do you know?

They say that there’s a particular moment when you just know you want to spend the rest of your life with a person, that he’s The One. Maybe the moment he drove seven hours to your house so he can bring you to the airport without getting soaked in the rain. Or the moment you…