Dear Alexis,

This is going to be short. I’m not sure if you saw it from there, but I just want to share–when I was in Italy for the premiere of my first full-length film (have you seen it there already?), a journalist asked me why I dedicated my film to you, and I did something I have never done while being interviewed–I cried. I cried like a little girl. I tried my best not to, but before I knew it, I was crying uncontrollably. I miss you, Alexis. I really would’ve wanted you to be there on my film’s premiere. That night was amazing…but had you been there, it would’ve been perfect. Alexis, direktor na’ko, shet. ‘Di ba dati, sinasabi ko pa sa’yo na parang nawawalan na ‘yung dati kong passion, na hindi ako ‘yung kilala mo dating ang galing gumawa ng short films? Tapos sabi mo sa’kin, basta wag lang ako titigil? Basta gawa lang ako nang gawa? Alexis, hindi ako tumigil o. Tumuloy pa rin ako. Napanood mo ba dyan? Ano’ng tingin mo? Alam mo ba, sa saobrang bilib ko sa’yo, sinabi ko sa sarili ko, kapag hindi mo nagustuhan ang short film ko, ibig sabihin, I failed. Kahit sabihin pa ng lahat na ang ganda-ganda ‘nun, kapag ikaw, feeling ko, hindi mo nagustuhan, wala. Pangit ang nagawa ko. (Kaya siguro hindi ko magawang lubusang magustuhan ‘yung “Tumbang preso” hehe. Aminin Alexis.) I really hope you like Six Degrees. That film, Alexis, it really was for you. Hindi ko pa nagagawa yun, iniisip ko pa lang yun, konsepto pa lang, sinabi ko na sa sarili kong ang una kong pelikula, para sa’yo talaga. Thank you talaga, Alexis, from the bottom of my heart. Sobrang miss kita, ser. I’ll see you when I get there.

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